Crimson Wave March 12, 2009

I’m having a bad day  Heck, i’m having kind of a rough week actually.  What is up with me?  Anyways, let’s start with today and work backwards and maybe it will all make sense to me…

I’m PMS’ing.  That’s the reason for my emotional wreckage.  The ”crimson wave” came today and took me for a ride (aka Aunt Flo).  Uhh!  I hate this monthly rollercoaster, but i’ve got a handle on it now that I know what ride I just got on.  But honestly, I can’t completely blame the crimson wave for how I’m feeling.  Just the anticipation and not knowing what will happen, alone is what causes most of my turbulence.  I realize my mind can do some pretty serious damage all on its own.

Today  I was tested on my negotiation skills and goodness my stomach started to hurt.  Eck!  I hate conflict, and i know it’s a part of life.  Oh, but be strong Karen!  Suck it up!  So I did… I made a couple of difficult calls today and now that the first one is done, i realized it wasn’t so bad.  I’m going to stay positive and hope my other call will go just as well.  I just don’t like to disappoint others or to make the wrong decision that would mess up someone’s life or career.  It’s no wonder i’m not a doctor or a lawyer.  It’s probably pretty scary that I’m a mom, now that i think about it.

Speaking of being a mommy.  I wasn’t doing so well in that arena either earlier this week .  Instead of spending some quality time with my little girl, I ended up watching  I Love Money 2 instead.  What the heck?!  And by the time I was ready to play with her, she was asleep.  Bad Mommy!  I felt so bad and have been torturing myself since.  The song Cat’s in the Cradle playing though my head.  It’s been a few days now, and i think that I’ve done much better and will continue to do so. 

I know this emotional ”ride” will end soon, and i’ll probably be a wreck until then, but I’m glad that I’m stepping up to the plate and facing my fears head on.  Let’s hope for a better rest of the day…

date night February 20, 2009

As some of you know, last night Matt and I had our first date night in a very long time.  Needless to say we had a great time.  We went to the Pacific Cafe in the city and the food was sooo yummy!  The restaurant is a popular seafood joint that we passed by so many times, and finally Matt decided it was time we checked it out.

For starters, we enjoyed a complimentary glass of white wine and of course some bread and butter.  Matt was starving, and the wine went straight to his head.   You could tell, because he got so chatty.  It was cute.  We ordered the calamari vinaigrette as our appetizer, which was really tasty.  For dinner I decided on the Ahi Tuna w/ Wasabi Butter and a Crab Bisque(hello, this was the bomb!).  And of all things in a SEAFOOD restaurant, Matt ordered….a Steak.  I thought it was funny considering that he always used to say, ” You can’t go to a steak restaurant and not order a steak”.  The food was delicious and cooked perfectly.  The plate lacked presentation, but heck, who cared, the food was great!  Sorry, I went off on a tangent and turned into a food critic from Iron Chef America.

Anyways, the night was filled with laughter, reminiscing, and just enjoying each other’s company.  We needed that.  Even the happiest of couples need that.  Its a great reminder of how much we unknowingly take our loved ones for granted, and just a great refresher for the routine we get so caught up in.  After the dinner, Matt suggested to try and do date night at least once a month.  I agreed.  I love that man.

P.S.  This is a special shout out to Matt’s parents for keeping Nikka a little longer so that we could enjoy this time together.  Thank you!